I, on the other hand, am still thinking about the fact that tomorrow is Friday, the date that the boy from long ago told me to put aside. I did. And despite having already seen him and knowing that it's all wrong, the date is still in the put aside for him basket.
What is wrong with me??!?!! I need a distraction and pronto!
The sad thing is, if he calls I fear I may crumble but I have no understanding as to why? I am that starved of intimacy that anything will do even if ultimately it causes me pain? Well, yes I think this might be the case. It was the case with my last relationship and I spent 4 years in that state of mind. FARK....it's possible I need help. Or a dog.
Actually I have volunteered to foster dogs before they get permanent homes. Put good karma out there and good will come back...so they say...(who are THEY anyway???) Hope it works!
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